life is peachy♥

Thursday, February 5, 2009 ♥

i just thought why could everyone be mean? well, a second voice answered: "they are mean because they can't stand to see anyone's success overshadow them." haha. i mean not because i was highly recommended by a boss does mean that i'm plainly nonsense and i am not capable of things. the start of the week was driving me to hell. (one's success gave me a slap of failure on my part) but i'm happy for them. it gave me a signal not to get jealous because it's not right to compare yourself to others since we don't know what they've gone through. yadayadayada but i'm still green-eyed. vague. vague. vague. help! i'm lost, can you show me the way?

sang at @ 6:43 PM

Friday, January 23, 2009 ♥

The first time I saw Ne yo's video, it was like meant for me to see. Ne yo's the bomb. His songs are right on target. I can sit all day listening to his music!

"...I don't want to go to bed mad at you... and i don't want you to go to bed mad at me..."

I wonder why is it sometimes that no matter how you try not to argue with things, you just can't stop it. Fighting is so inevitable and it makes me so mad inside. By the end of the day wishing it will turn out good, you fight. Just because... Can't life be fair sometimes? And you expect to have a good sleep yet for some lame reason you just don't.

".. and it gets me upset girl when you are constantly accusing, asking questions you already know.."

And even though how much you exert the effort to be the best that you can, its just not enough. Have you ever felt the feeling that even if you are saying the truth, you are just not worthy of the trust? And it looks like the other way around. You end up saying sorry for no reason and sorry for yourself because you can't seem to earn a trust. You are "constantly accused" for being the person you are not. And you know it's not true but just can't do anything. "Asking questions" which are impossible to answer all the more. Do we always have to have the right answer for the mere satisfaction? What if we just don't have one?

As the cliche goes - nobody's perfect. We can't always expect the person to be the person we want them to be. We are all entitled to our idiosyncrasies. Happy or sad. It's just sometimes that we don't get to control over our emotions. Human as we can be. For a fact we are called "individuals". There are just things that we can't always play God. Life is too precious to be wasted for the negativity, we always have a choice: be happy.

Enough of the melodrama! I just miss writing...

sang at @ 8:51 AM

Tuesday, January 20, 2009 ♥

Emancipation.

There are times when I don't know myself oftentimes my shadow is a whole different persona. I am too blinded with fantasies that I happen to disregard reality. I failed. I failed in my exam which I thought I worked hard but was too short to get it. Failure is such a killer. It stabbed me at the back where in I was vulnerable to lose more than my title. Every night in my sleep it haunts me. I want to break free from all the effects it has caused me. I want to shout my lungs out till it gives up and cry my heart out till it shuts down. This pain had caused me too many downfalls... too many criticisms that my senses can barely absorb.

I want to refresh and smell the morning dew. Wake up! Life had been wanting to be with you again!

sang at @ 9:00 PM

Tuesday, September 16, 2008 ♥

I just thought that everyone has the right to post anything on their sites. I came across a blog and it raised my eyebrows. I mean why would they give such tactless comments on blogs? Just because they look fat in that swimsuit or they 'pretending' to find catharsis on their blogs. The fact is: it's theirs and they have the right to post whatever they want. If it's not delightful to the critics eyes, then why read? Some people just have self-gratification when they talk about others lives. You can call that a doormat. In my end, I don't really care and I have too many things to write about than pretending to be some critic from planet Mars.

I miss writing for sure. It gives me solace from the stressful day. I wish I could reinvent this blog into being me but I just don't know how. I'll try to figure things out after my exam. I've been anxious about alot actually. My exam, my career, the choices that I make. I'm just living each day and feeling the signs to which way I'm heading to.

sang at @ 7:14 AM

Wednesday, September 10, 2008 ♥

Honestly?! It's more than the chocolates. He never fails to remind me of much I mean to him. And that goes for you as well hun. I can't wait to be with you again. I'm thrilled!

Aside from my 'review'... oops there is no aside! lol. That is all that I have. And Hun of course. I get to write a little on this fickle minded blog.

I've been thinking alot too lately. Can't decide of which pavement should I take. The left or the right? Enlighten me.

Nevertheless, things are still... PEACHY.

*Still binging on my chocolate. :)

sang at @ 7:33 AM

Wednesday, August 27, 2008 ♥

I don't really know how life came into place. The last thing I remembered was getting bored with my mundane job while reading my reviewer. And the next thing I realized that I'm wearing a promise ring, sitting in a review while waiting for that imminent judgement day and being inlove. But life wasn't all easy and dandy for me I had tough times of doubts, hurts and tribulations (if that is how you call it). Life isn't life without its irony right? but then things still do workout.

I just can't imagine myself without my routine wake up call. I just hope that THAT DAY would soon come -> no more doubts, anger and mistrusts. I want to wake up one day without thinking of any possible 'issues'. I know I had my tumultuous moments but I learned from every inch of that and I'm trying to build something futuristic. I want something to call my own.

I know my mind is too fickle to think about what is going to happen tomorrow but one thing is for sure. I truly found what I was looking for -> L-O-V-E. Are the negative vibes over? I wanna embrace all the positive energies.

*Sleepy*

sang at @ 8:06 AM

Tuesday, July 8, 2008 ♥

And one day it came! After all those turmoil and tumultuous scenarios of the so-called love life, by the end of the race that imagery would come to reality. How many times it had been said but then it just keeps on going. My mother once said that what would be its essence if it is all about tear-jerking moments. The reason for finding one is to findhappiness as well which I never failed to share with my friends. And they as well live by the wisdom of her words.

Sometimes we don't get the fairytale that we wanted. The knight in shining armor rescuing a damsel in distress. I always thought it was that simple. Wishful thinking *sighs, someday! And yet it did. But a whole new twist. Before you get it, a little sacrifice, understanding and a whole trust!

The greatest thing you'll ever learn is to love and be loved in return!
- Moulin Rouge-

sang at @ 1:28 AM